Hi baby girl,
This will probably be the last time I write to you on here. When the doctor called me back on Friday and told me that we had a miscarriage I still didn't want to believe him :( But unfortunately I started bleeding the very next day. Sunday was the worst.. I had cramps so bad that all I could do was lay in a ball and cry. It didn't help that I was heartbroken at what this meant.
I'm starting to turn around and be more positive. I'm very happy that I was able to pass everything through me on my own. I didn't want to have surgery.. it just seemed wrong to have you surgically removed from me. This was more natual and helped bring peace to the whole ordeal. I'm expecting to bleed for a couple more days and then hopefully in a month's time I will get my period and your daddy and I will be able to try again!
It makes me sad to look in your closet and see the few outfits that I had already bought for you. I even had a coming home outfit picked out. You would have looked so beautiful :) I miss you everyday and will never, ever forget that you were my first little baby.
Have fun in Heaven, sweetie. I know you will be taken care of there.
I'll love you forever and not a day less.
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