I'm sorry if I didn't get enough sleep for the both of us last night. I don't sleep very well when your daddy isn't home and he had went out for some celebratory drinks after finishing his Entry Level Fire classes. I feel good now, but I know I'll be tired later on! I also feel like I need to apologize for the Chipotle I ate last night. The guy put the medium salsa on my burrito bowl and instead of making a fuss and having him remake one, I just took it. About 30 seconds after I finished eating it though I got the worst heartburn! Thankfully it didn't last long :)
Anyways-- I wanted to tell you about the day I found out about you.. only TWO days ago, I can't believe it! You're already such a huge part of my life and I love you so, so much!
Tuesday evening I was looking in the mirror at my tummy and thought that it had gotten quite a bit bigger.. which I was not happy about. I try so hard to be healthy and in shape, but it comes hard for me. So after looking in the mirror I decided that tomorrow I would start getting into shape again! Your daddy walked past me and said "maybe there's a baby in there!" I told him that there probably wasn't :( I'd had cramps for the last week and figured my period would be coming any day now. We went to bed and I didn't think another thing about it.
Wednesday morning I woke up and I honestly can't tell you what was going through my head, but I decided to take a pregnancy test. Sweet Angel, we've wanted you for so long.. over the last 2 years we've been trying I've taken so many pregnancy tests that came back negative. I had no doubt this one would too. But like I said, I don't even know what made me do it. I had bought a pregnancy test from the dollar store and took it right when I woke up. It was one of those dinky little ones where there's a one control line and then if another line shows up you're pregnant. Well right away there was 2 lines.. but one was quite a bit lighter than the other. Wednesday's are usually my half days, so I decided to run to Walmart before work and buy another test.. just in case that one came back positive too. Then I would have time to try and schedule a doctor appointment for right after work. I had something to return to Walmart and for once I had paid in cash.. so when I returned it I got $12 back. I knew right where to go to find home pregnancy tests. I looked over the couple brands I'd tried before. Then I saw a 3 pack of Clear Blue digital tests.. for only $9! I figured it was meant to be.. and took them to the check out. I thought about taking the test at Walmart so I could run home and talk to your daddy before having to go to work. I didn't really have to pee though, so I just went straight to work.
I was trying so hard not to get my hopes up.. but I wanted it to be true so bad. I can't remember exactly how long I waited before I took the test into the bathroom. My hands were shaking so bad when I was unwrapping the test. I did my thing and set it on the sink. I tried not to look at it as I washed my hands and fixed my hair. When I glanced down and saw the clear, digital words PREGNANT I burst out in a huge grin that probably stayed there the entrie time I was at work. I called and made a doctor appointment and then called your daddy right away. We both knew better than to get our hopes up.. but it was finally happening!
I couldn't keep this to myself so I had to tell your Auntie Sami. She was so excited too :) I didn't want to tell anyone else until I'd gotten confirmation from the doctors. I knew I wouldn't want to tell many other people right away anyways, but I was having dinner with my friends, Jessie and Erin later that night. They've been here for me through this from the very beginning and I knew I just had to tell them! (both of them are pregnant.. just a couple weeks ahead of me!)
Long story short.. your daddy and I waited in the waiting room at the clinic for about 30 minutes before we were seen. When we were brought into the doctors office the nurse took my blood pressure and sent me to pee in a cup. 10 minutes later the doctor came in, shook our hands and said congratulations :) I think we were both a little speechless at first. Could all our dreams finally be coming true?!
Well yes, little one.. they are. Because I am growing you inside of me, and you are mine.
I will love you forever,
Your mama :)
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