Hi angel,
20 more hours until our first appointment! Hey, let's say we make a deal? You show that doctor how big and strong you are, and let daddy and me see your heart a'beatin away.. and I will indulge in a special treat for you after the appointment? You can decide tomorrow what you want that treat to be :) Think you can make that work, babe?
I'm so nervous and so excited at the same time! I called our insurance company yesterday and asked how many ultrasounds our policy covers. She said that it covers 2, unless the doctor orders more due to medical reasons. Did you know that if everything is okay after this checkup that we will be able to find out if you're a little girl or a little boy in about 10-12 weeks?! Exciting news, huh?
I'm going to try to remember to take a picture of some really cute stuff that I got you last weekend. I'm surprised your daddy hasn't said anything yet.. but maybe he hasn't really looked in your closet. It's VIKINGS!! YAYYY!! I am a diehard Viking and your daddy loves the Packers. He's going to have to get his little butt out shopping if he thinks you're ever going to have Packer stuff in your closet! I won't be surprised if you end up with some Packer stuff as gifts.. almost all of our friends are Packers fans.
I'm super, super tired all of a sudden. Last night was the best nights sleep I've had in few days too! I didn't fall asleep until around midnight but I didn't wake up until my alarm went off this morning :) Can't complain about that! Usually you're little brothers and sisters (puppies that is) wake me up at least once a night. I guess they decided to be nice to your mama today :)
Time to pretend to be busy at work..
I love you more than you know :)
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
Here's to thinking positive!
Hi peanut.
2 more days until our doctor appointment. I've been trying to gather as much information as I can about what all happens at this appointment. It seems different for every person and every doctor though. All I know is that I really want to be able to hear your heartbeat first. If for some reason something is wrong.. I don't want to have wasted 2 hours sitting there answering questions all the while I'm worrying about whether I'm going to be able to hear your heartbeat or not as soon as their done.
I hope that if you look back and read this someday, that you'll take all my worrying as a sign of endearment and not craziness. :( You are a miracle to us and you always will be!
I love you bunches,
Your mama
2 more days until our doctor appointment. I've been trying to gather as much information as I can about what all happens at this appointment. It seems different for every person and every doctor though. All I know is that I really want to be able to hear your heartbeat first. If for some reason something is wrong.. I don't want to have wasted 2 hours sitting there answering questions all the while I'm worrying about whether I'm going to be able to hear your heartbeat or not as soon as their done.
I hope that if you look back and read this someday, that you'll take all my worrying as a sign of endearment and not craziness. :( You are a miracle to us and you always will be!
I love you bunches,
Your mama
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Oh baby!
You already have a closet full of clothes :/ And I've been obsessed with researching cloth diapers. I need to slow down.. I have 7 whole months to figure all this stuff out! But it's just so exciting :) 2 more days until we can hopefully hear your little heart beating.
So in love with you already!
Saturday Slump
Good morning little baby :)
Our first night without daddy went pretty well. I sure do enjoy having the whole bed to myself! Not that I don't miss your daddy very much :( but only one more day and he'll be home late Sunday! I hope that he gets lots of coyotes.. he had so much fun last year!
I had to switch our ultrasound appointment to Wednesday instead of Tuesday now. I didn't realize that there was only 3 people here on Tuesday and I wasn't sure how long the appointment would take and didn't want to leave just 2 people here for half the day. So instead I took all of Wednesday off and made an appointment for 8:50 in the morning so daddy can go too :)
I think I worry myself too much sometimes. I just want everything to be okay with you so, so bad. We tried so hard to have you, sweetie.. it would break our hearts if something happened :( I know it's not safe to worry and I don't want to worry you either.. but I do want you to know how much you mean to us already. And we've only known about you for 2 1/2 weeks! I'm sure everything is going to be just fine though :) And in roughly 230 days I will get to hold you for the first time!
I love you so much,
Your mama
Our first night without daddy went pretty well. I sure do enjoy having the whole bed to myself! Not that I don't miss your daddy very much :( but only one more day and he'll be home late Sunday! I hope that he gets lots of coyotes.. he had so much fun last year!
I had to switch our ultrasound appointment to Wednesday instead of Tuesday now. I didn't realize that there was only 3 people here on Tuesday and I wasn't sure how long the appointment would take and didn't want to leave just 2 people here for half the day. So instead I took all of Wednesday off and made an appointment for 8:50 in the morning so daddy can go too :)
I think I worry myself too much sometimes. I just want everything to be okay with you so, so bad. We tried so hard to have you, sweetie.. it would break our hearts if something happened :( I know it's not safe to worry and I don't want to worry you either.. but I do want you to know how much you mean to us already. And we've only known about you for 2 1/2 weeks! I'm sure everything is going to be just fine though :) And in roughly 230 days I will get to hold you for the first time!
I love you so much,
Your mama
Friday, January 27, 2012
7 Weeks
Good morning, my sweet little blueberry :) That's how big you are today! Word on the street is, you DOUBLED in size since last week! Keep at it, little munchkin. This mommy wants her baby to be big and strong for when I get to meet you! Well.. not too big.. I'm going to love, love, love snuggling with you when you're so tiny! Okay who am I kidding, I'm going to love snuggling you ALL the time!I'm waiting on a call back from the doctor today. I talked to some very nice people yesterday, wondering about the types of ultrasounds that they offer. Unfortunately, our doctor wasn't there today so he's going to give me a call back today. I really hope that he agrees to see me sooner! I can't wait to find out how you're doing :) Even though I'm sure you're doing JUST WONDERFUL!
The doctor called me back as I was writing that last sentence.. I have an appointment for next Tuesday!!! That's only 4 days, peanut! YAHOOOO! I'm so excited :) :) I love you so much.. I hope you know that. I'll see you soon :)
Love,
mama
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Cravings?
Good morning love bug :)
You were silly last night! You wouldn't let me sleep and you made me get out of bed at midnight to make french toast! ;) but it sure was delicious! And oddly enough, I'm not tired yet today. I only got 4 hours of sleep though!
I made my first appointment with an OB on March 2nd. I am not happy at all that I have to wait that long, and I wish that they would have agreed to see me at 9 weeks instead of 12.. but oh well. I'm looking into this place in Stillwater that does ultrasounds. I'm going to check in to how much it is and maybe make an appointment to go there next week? I just really want to make sure you're doing okay in there!
I went to Walmart yesterday and bought some little hangers for your clothes. You already have a couple things hanging in your closet! For some reason, I am just certain you are going to be a little girl! I've started getting coupons for different baby sites and I want so bad to start shopping for you! But how silly would I feel if we found out you were a boy! I would have a lot of returning to do ;) So I'm really trying to hold off.. or at least just buy neutral stuff.
This weekend your daddy is going to North Dakota to hunt coyotes. I think that he's secretly wishing you are a little boy so he can take you with him hunting. But hey, even if you're a girl maybe you'll like that stuff! Honey, you can be/do whatever you want in life. (only if it's legal, of course) You deserve only the best!
On that note, I should get back to work.
I love you to the moon and back!
You were silly last night! You wouldn't let me sleep and you made me get out of bed at midnight to make french toast! ;) but it sure was delicious! And oddly enough, I'm not tired yet today. I only got 4 hours of sleep though!
I made my first appointment with an OB on March 2nd. I am not happy at all that I have to wait that long, and I wish that they would have agreed to see me at 9 weeks instead of 12.. but oh well. I'm looking into this place in Stillwater that does ultrasounds. I'm going to check in to how much it is and maybe make an appointment to go there next week? I just really want to make sure you're doing okay in there!
I went to Walmart yesterday and bought some little hangers for your clothes. You already have a couple things hanging in your closet! For some reason, I am just certain you are going to be a little girl! I've started getting coupons for different baby sites and I want so bad to start shopping for you! But how silly would I feel if we found out you were a boy! I would have a lot of returning to do ;) So I'm really trying to hold off.. or at least just buy neutral stuff.
This weekend your daddy is going to North Dakota to hunt coyotes. I think that he's secretly wishing you are a little boy so he can take you with him hunting. But hey, even if you're a girl maybe you'll like that stuff! Honey, you can be/do whatever you want in life. (only if it's legal, of course) You deserve only the best!
On that note, I should get back to work.
I love you to the moon and back!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Sweet Pea
Hi sweet pea!
That's how big you are today, did you know that? You probably did.. because I like talking to you and telling you things :)
Thanks for not making me sick.. yet! So far I just have very tender boobs (your daddy hates this!), am pretty tired and eat like a COW! I'm loving the excuse to eat lots though :) I have to help my baby grow big & strong, right?
I think I told you that I have bought you a couple cute little outfits and since daddy has cleaned out alot of his room for you, I think I might go to Walmart after work and pick up some totes and baby hangers. Doesn't organizing your closet a little bit sound like fun? :) I think so!
I spend most of my days at work looking at baby things for you. Holy smackers, you're going to cost your daddy and me a good deal of money! Worth every penny though, sweetie! And I want to have the very best of everything for you. You deserve it!
Once we go to the doctor and have an ultrasound and hear your heartbeat I think I might open this blog up so that other people can see. It might be nice to have other people's opinions on some things. For now I'm just using the forums on TheBump.com
It's a great website and I love chatting with other people who are due around the same time as me!
Well, I'm going to go back to my online shopping :)
I love you to pieces,
Your Mama :)
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Another weekend passed.
Hi peanut :)
I hate the fact that it's Sunday evening already.. BUT the best part of another weekend gone, is that I am that much closer to meeting you! How's that for thinking positive, little one? :)
It was a pretty nice weekend. I went home sick on Friday and got the pleasure of laying in bed watching OTH with you all day! Daddy came home and helped me clean for awhile after school and then he went out with some friends. We had dinner over at Grandma Garden's too and we got to tell your aunt and uncle about you! It was kind of fun.. your grandma had bought you a little sock & mitten set and wrapped it up in Christmas paper. She told everyone else that she had just forgotten to give us a present on Christmas and your daddy opened it in front of everyone. It took a second but they finally realized what was going on. They are very, very excited for us! And your little cousin, Emmie, told us that you were going to be a little boy and your name was going to be Chip. What do ya think of that?! ;)
Saturday I got to be lazy and finish some cleaning again and then we went to Woodville for daddy's work Christmas party. It was pretty fun and it took about half the night for someone to ask why I wasn't drinking. So a whole new group of people got to find out about you! Everyone is just so happy for us :)
We were driving home that night and your daddy was holding my hand and telling me how much he loved me. He said that he's never been happier than he is right now. We've been through some stuff recently and you don't know how much it meant to me to hear him say that. We're going to love you so much, baby. I can't wait until you are here!
Sleep tight tonight sweetie!
Love you forever :)
I hate the fact that it's Sunday evening already.. BUT the best part of another weekend gone, is that I am that much closer to meeting you! How's that for thinking positive, little one? :)
It was a pretty nice weekend. I went home sick on Friday and got the pleasure of laying in bed watching OTH with you all day! Daddy came home and helped me clean for awhile after school and then he went out with some friends. We had dinner over at Grandma Garden's too and we got to tell your aunt and uncle about you! It was kind of fun.. your grandma had bought you a little sock & mitten set and wrapped it up in Christmas paper. She told everyone else that she had just forgotten to give us a present on Christmas and your daddy opened it in front of everyone. It took a second but they finally realized what was going on. They are very, very excited for us! And your little cousin, Emmie, told us that you were going to be a little boy and your name was going to be Chip. What do ya think of that?! ;)
Saturday I got to be lazy and finish some cleaning again and then we went to Woodville for daddy's work Christmas party. It was pretty fun and it took about half the night for someone to ask why I wasn't drinking. So a whole new group of people got to find out about you! Everyone is just so happy for us :)
We were driving home that night and your daddy was holding my hand and telling me how much he loved me. He said that he's never been happier than he is right now. We've been through some stuff recently and you don't know how much it meant to me to hear him say that. We're going to love you so much, baby. I can't wait until you are here!
Sleep tight tonight sweetie!
Love you forever :)
Friday, January 20, 2012
6 Weeks
Hi sweet baby!
We've made it to the 6 week mark :) .. well YOU'VE made it to the 6 week mark! I've done nothing except love you and think about constantly. But you.. you're the real hero. Working so hard at growing big and strong! The website I read says that you are the size of a pea this week! And guess what? That's double your size last week.. GO YOU! It also says that this week you start forming your nose, ears, eyes, chin and cheeks. And in 8 short months I will be kissing and kissing and kissing those cute little ears, eyes, cheeks and nose :) :)
No new symptoms yet! Very, very tired all the time and usually hungry 24/7. This is the week that most people get their morning sickness.. but we're going to cross our fingers that I don't! I know you wouldn't mean to make your mama sick, but still baby.. it's not a very nice thing to do ;)
Last night your daddy got in one of his cleaning moods and he starting moving all of his stuff out of the spare bedroom.. your bedroom! I won't want to start decorating until I find out if you're a little girl or a little boy.. but it's fun to see the room so empty and imagine it filled with your precious baby things :) I think next time I run to Walmart I'm going to buy a pack of baby hangers. That way I can hang some of the clothes I bought you up! It's been hard.. I really feel like you're a girl, but I know that I could be completely wrong! 14 more weeks and we can probably find out!
Tonight we're going to dinner over at your Grandma Garden's. We know that she won't be able to keep the news of you to herself for long, so we figured that we better just tell daddy's brother and sister-in-law (your aunt & uncle). I'm trying not to get nervous.. but I would be so, so heartbroken if anything happened to you.
Please keep growing baby bean,
I love you so, so much!!
We've made it to the 6 week mark :) .. well YOU'VE made it to the 6 week mark! I've done nothing except love you and think about constantly. But you.. you're the real hero. Working so hard at growing big and strong! The website I read says that you are the size of a pea this week! And guess what? That's double your size last week.. GO YOU! It also says that this week you start forming your nose, ears, eyes, chin and cheeks. And in 8 short months I will be kissing and kissing and kissing those cute little ears, eyes, cheeks and nose :) :)
No new symptoms yet! Very, very tired all the time and usually hungry 24/7. This is the week that most people get their morning sickness.. but we're going to cross our fingers that I don't! I know you wouldn't mean to make your mama sick, but still baby.. it's not a very nice thing to do ;)
Last night your daddy got in one of his cleaning moods and he starting moving all of his stuff out of the spare bedroom.. your bedroom! I won't want to start decorating until I find out if you're a little girl or a little boy.. but it's fun to see the room so empty and imagine it filled with your precious baby things :) I think next time I run to Walmart I'm going to buy a pack of baby hangers. That way I can hang some of the clothes I bought you up! It's been hard.. I really feel like you're a girl, but I know that I could be completely wrong! 14 more weeks and we can probably find out!
Tonight we're going to dinner over at your Grandma Garden's. We know that she won't be able to keep the news of you to herself for long, so we figured that we better just tell daddy's brother and sister-in-law (your aunt & uncle). I'm trying not to get nervous.. but I would be so, so heartbroken if anything happened to you.
Please keep growing baby bean,
I love you so, so much!!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Hello winter!
Good morning love!
Today is the coldest day of the year so far and it's already January 19th! This is crazy, because usually we've had TWO months of this kind of weather so far. This time last year we'd probably had at least 3 feet of snow so far.. and your daddy had made a couple thousand bucks from plowing. But not this year :( I complain about winter, but I really think snow is beautiful and magical and I'm missing it this year. I'm sure we'll get our usual March snowstorm though :)
Last night your daddy and me took your Grandma Garden to dinner. (Chipotle.. you seemed to like it better this time!) She was in Florida when we found out about you and we didn't want to tell her over the phone. I was curious as to how your daddy was going to tell her and I was waiting and waiting all through dinner. Finally we were finished eating and daddy said "Did you get enough for two, honey?" First, your Grandma Garden choked on her water. Then she looked at Joe and I for confirmation, and when we both nodded our heads yes.. she SCREAMED! I was too shocked to even look around at people's reactions but I'm sure we got some very funny looks!! The funniest part was a little while later she had to ask us how she reacted when we told her.. she honestly had no idea what she did! Oh that funny grandma you have ;)
Tomorrow I will be 6 weeks along and that much closer to getting to meet you :)
I love you so much, my little angel!
Today is the coldest day of the year so far and it's already January 19th! This is crazy, because usually we've had TWO months of this kind of weather so far. This time last year we'd probably had at least 3 feet of snow so far.. and your daddy had made a couple thousand bucks from plowing. But not this year :( I complain about winter, but I really think snow is beautiful and magical and I'm missing it this year. I'm sure we'll get our usual March snowstorm though :)
Last night your daddy and me took your Grandma Garden to dinner. (Chipotle.. you seemed to like it better this time!) She was in Florida when we found out about you and we didn't want to tell her over the phone. I was curious as to how your daddy was going to tell her and I was waiting and waiting all through dinner. Finally we were finished eating and daddy said "Did you get enough for two, honey?" First, your Grandma Garden choked on her water. Then she looked at Joe and I for confirmation, and when we both nodded our heads yes.. she SCREAMED! I was too shocked to even look around at people's reactions but I'm sure we got some very funny looks!! The funniest part was a little while later she had to ask us how she reacted when we told her.. she honestly had no idea what she did! Oh that funny grandma you have ;)
Tomorrow I will be 6 weeks along and that much closer to getting to meet you :)
I love you so much, my little angel!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Happy 1-Week Mark.. ;)
Hi, baby!
Guess what? I've known about you for a week now :) Boy does time fly, huh?
I hope you're still growing as big and strong as you possibly can right now!
I read some different websites and they tell me that right now you're the size of a an apple seed and you're already starting to form major organs! You grow that heart big and strong, you hear? I can't wait to hear it beating for the first time :)
I'm trying to eat healthy foods for the both of us.. but I am just so hungry ALL. THE. TIME! Last night I ate TWO burritos and then half a box of Goldfish. And then some cheetos and some candy and then finally I cut myself off. Hm.. I just re-read that and realized that you're going to think I lied to you.. I promise I really am eating healthy most of the time! For breakfast I have cereal, an apple and a banana. For lunch I have a big salad and some other sort of snack.. maybe some crackers or beef sticks. Then dinner I have whatever your daddy whips up for us.
I love stopping and taking in the miracle of you :) I've wanted to be a mommy for so long! I remember when I was very little (8, 9, 10..? Can't remember exactly) I used to read The Babysitters Club books and wish that someone would leave a baby on my doorstep so I could take care of it. Your grandma used to do daycare at her house ever since my brother (your uncle) was born. So I grew up around little babies and I LOVED it! Unfortunately, all her babies grew up and she decided to find another job. This was only a year or two ago and I was really sad that she wouldn't be able to watch you everyday like I always imagined she would :( But we'll figure something out!
Well, I need to get back to work now.
Stay cozy, little angel--
Mama loves you!
Guess what? I've known about you for a week now :) Boy does time fly, huh?
I hope you're still growing as big and strong as you possibly can right now!
I read some different websites and they tell me that right now you're the size of a an apple seed and you're already starting to form major organs! You grow that heart big and strong, you hear? I can't wait to hear it beating for the first time :)
I'm trying to eat healthy foods for the both of us.. but I am just so hungry ALL. THE. TIME! Last night I ate TWO burritos and then half a box of Goldfish. And then some cheetos and some candy and then finally I cut myself off. Hm.. I just re-read that and realized that you're going to think I lied to you.. I promise I really am eating healthy most of the time! For breakfast I have cereal, an apple and a banana. For lunch I have a big salad and some other sort of snack.. maybe some crackers or beef sticks. Then dinner I have whatever your daddy whips up for us.
I love stopping and taking in the miracle of you :) I've wanted to be a mommy for so long! I remember when I was very little (8, 9, 10..? Can't remember exactly) I used to read The Babysitters Club books and wish that someone would leave a baby on my doorstep so I could take care of it. Your grandma used to do daycare at her house ever since my brother (your uncle) was born. So I grew up around little babies and I LOVED it! Unfortunately, all her babies grew up and she decided to find another job. This was only a year or two ago and I was really sad that she wouldn't be able to watch you everyday like I always imagined she would :( But we'll figure something out!
Well, I need to get back to work now.
Stay cozy, little angel--
Mama loves you!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Just another manic Monday..
Hello my love,
You are making your mama so tired lately! But secretly I'm thrilled about it, because it means you're working hard to create a safe and cozy home for yourself for the next 8 months :) Oh, 8 months.. that seems like so far away. I just can't wait to meet you, my little beaner!
I bought you a couple things yesterday :) Kohl's was having a big clearance and I got a couple Christmas & Halloween outfits for you. Hard to think that by Christmas time this year our family will have grown by one! That reminds me that I was going to introduce you to those noisy, playful pups that you'll soon be calling your siblings! I forgot to upload pictures at home though, so that might have to wait until tomorrow.
Slowly and slowly news of you is leaking out. I still don't want to tell too many people yet.. just because Jesus might decide that he needs you more than I do, little angel. If ever something should happen these next couple weeks your daddy and I will be so, so sad.. but we know you will be taken care of in Heaven. I try not to think about it much though!
I smoked my last cigarette last night (I know, I know.. I should have quit right away, I'm sorry!) I had half a pack left when I found out I was pregnant with you.. and I made it last until last night (that's a very long time for this smoking bandit!) But I am willing to do everything and anything to help you grow big and strong :)
Technically today is Tuesday but since yesterday was Martin Luther King Day we got the day off work. I got a 3 day weekend.. that hardly every happens! It was very nice to relax and get some stuff done around the house.. I can't wait until we can start cleaning outyour daddy's spare bedroom and decorate it for YOU! Soon enough, right? :)
I love you to pieces,
Your Mama
You are making your mama so tired lately! But secretly I'm thrilled about it, because it means you're working hard to create a safe and cozy home for yourself for the next 8 months :) Oh, 8 months.. that seems like so far away. I just can't wait to meet you, my little beaner!
I bought you a couple things yesterday :) Kohl's was having a big clearance and I got a couple Christmas & Halloween outfits for you. Hard to think that by Christmas time this year our family will have grown by one! That reminds me that I was going to introduce you to those noisy, playful pups that you'll soon be calling your siblings! I forgot to upload pictures at home though, so that might have to wait until tomorrow.
Slowly and slowly news of you is leaking out. I still don't want to tell too many people yet.. just because Jesus might decide that he needs you more than I do, little angel. If ever something should happen these next couple weeks your daddy and I will be so, so sad.. but we know you will be taken care of in Heaven. I try not to think about it much though!
I smoked my last cigarette last night (I know, I know.. I should have quit right away, I'm sorry!) I had half a pack left when I found out I was pregnant with you.. and I made it last until last night (that's a very long time for this smoking bandit!) But I am willing to do everything and anything to help you grow big and strong :)
Technically today is Tuesday but since yesterday was Martin Luther King Day we got the day off work. I got a 3 day weekend.. that hardly every happens! It was very nice to relax and get some stuff done around the house.. I can't wait until we can start cleaning outyour daddy's spare bedroom and decorate it for YOU! Soon enough, right? :)
I love you to pieces,
Your Mama
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Quick check in :)
Hi sweet pea,
Just wanted to check in with you today. Let you know I love you and all that good stuff ;)
It's been a lazy day so far.. your daddy and I are just enjoying the day/night to ourselves.
I will write more to you tomorrow, I promise.
Sleep tight and grow strong little one,
I'll love you always.
Just wanted to check in with you today. Let you know I love you and all that good stuff ;)
It's been a lazy day so far.. your daddy and I are just enjoying the day/night to ourselves.
I will write more to you tomorrow, I promise.
Sleep tight and grow strong little one,
I'll love you always.
Friday, January 13, 2012
The Day I Found Out About YOU..
Good morning little sprout :)
I'm sorry if I didn't get enough sleep for the both of us last night. I don't sleep very well when your daddy isn't home and he had went out for some celebratory drinks after finishing his Entry Level Fire classes. I feel good now, but I know I'll be tired later on! I also feel like I need to apologize for the Chipotle I ate last night. The guy put the medium salsa on my burrito bowl and instead of making a fuss and having him remake one, I just took it. About 30 seconds after I finished eating it though I got the worst heartburn! Thankfully it didn't last long :)
Anyways-- I wanted to tell you about the day I found out about you.. only TWO days ago, I can't believe it! You're already such a huge part of my life and I love you so, so much!
Tuesday evening I was looking in the mirror at my tummy and thought that it had gotten quite a bit bigger.. which I was not happy about. I try so hard to be healthy and in shape, but it comes hard for me. So after looking in the mirror I decided that tomorrow I would start getting into shape again! Your daddy walked past me and said "maybe there's a baby in there!" I told him that there probably wasn't :( I'd had cramps for the last week and figured my period would be coming any day now. We went to bed and I didn't think another thing about it.
Wednesday morning I woke up and I honestly can't tell you what was going through my head, but I decided to take a pregnancy test. Sweet Angel, we've wanted you for so long.. over the last 2 years we've been trying I've taken so many pregnancy tests that came back negative. I had no doubt this one would too. But like I said, I don't even know what made me do it. I had bought a pregnancy test from the dollar store and took it right when I woke up. It was one of those dinky little ones where there's a one control line and then if another line shows up you're pregnant. Well right away there was 2 lines.. but one was quite a bit lighter than the other. Wednesday's are usually my half days, so I decided to run to Walmart before work and buy another test.. just in case that one came back positive too. Then I would have time to try and schedule a doctor appointment for right after work. I had something to return to Walmart and for once I had paid in cash.. so when I returned it I got $12 back. I knew right where to go to find home pregnancy tests. I looked over the couple brands I'd tried before. Then I saw a 3 pack of Clear Blue digital tests.. for only $9! I figured it was meant to be.. and took them to the check out. I thought about taking the test at Walmart so I could run home and talk to your daddy before having to go to work. I didn't really have to pee though, so I just went straight to work.
I was trying so hard not to get my hopes up.. but I wanted it to be true so bad. I can't remember exactly how long I waited before I took the test into the bathroom. My hands were shaking so bad when I was unwrapping the test. I did my thing and set it on the sink. I tried not to look at it as I washed my hands and fixed my hair. When I glanced down and saw the clear, digital words PREGNANT I burst out in a huge grin that probably stayed there the entrie time I was at work. I called and made a doctor appointment and then called your daddy right away. We both knew better than to get our hopes up.. but it was finally happening!
I couldn't keep this to myself so I had to tell your Auntie Sami. She was so excited too :) I didn't want to tell anyone else until I'd gotten confirmation from the doctors. I knew I wouldn't want to tell many other people right away anyways, but I was having dinner with my friends, Jessie and Erin later that night. They've been here for me through this from the very beginning and I knew I just had to tell them! (both of them are pregnant.. just a couple weeks ahead of me!)
Long story short.. your daddy and I waited in the waiting room at the clinic for about 30 minutes before we were seen. When we were brought into the doctors office the nurse took my blood pressure and sent me to pee in a cup. 10 minutes later the doctor came in, shook our hands and said congratulations :) I think we were both a little speechless at first. Could all our dreams finally be coming true?!
Well yes, little one.. they are. Because I am growing you inside of me, and you are mine.
I will love you forever,
Your mama :)
I'm sorry if I didn't get enough sleep for the both of us last night. I don't sleep very well when your daddy isn't home and he had went out for some celebratory drinks after finishing his Entry Level Fire classes. I feel good now, but I know I'll be tired later on! I also feel like I need to apologize for the Chipotle I ate last night. The guy put the medium salsa on my burrito bowl and instead of making a fuss and having him remake one, I just took it. About 30 seconds after I finished eating it though I got the worst heartburn! Thankfully it didn't last long :)
Anyways-- I wanted to tell you about the day I found out about you.. only TWO days ago, I can't believe it! You're already such a huge part of my life and I love you so, so much!
Tuesday evening I was looking in the mirror at my tummy and thought that it had gotten quite a bit bigger.. which I was not happy about. I try so hard to be healthy and in shape, but it comes hard for me. So after looking in the mirror I decided that tomorrow I would start getting into shape again! Your daddy walked past me and said "maybe there's a baby in there!" I told him that there probably wasn't :( I'd had cramps for the last week and figured my period would be coming any day now. We went to bed and I didn't think another thing about it.
Wednesday morning I woke up and I honestly can't tell you what was going through my head, but I decided to take a pregnancy test. Sweet Angel, we've wanted you for so long.. over the last 2 years we've been trying I've taken so many pregnancy tests that came back negative. I had no doubt this one would too. But like I said, I don't even know what made me do it. I had bought a pregnancy test from the dollar store and took it right when I woke up. It was one of those dinky little ones where there's a one control line and then if another line shows up you're pregnant. Well right away there was 2 lines.. but one was quite a bit lighter than the other. Wednesday's are usually my half days, so I decided to run to Walmart before work and buy another test.. just in case that one came back positive too. Then I would have time to try and schedule a doctor appointment for right after work. I had something to return to Walmart and for once I had paid in cash.. so when I returned it I got $12 back. I knew right where to go to find home pregnancy tests. I looked over the couple brands I'd tried before. Then I saw a 3 pack of Clear Blue digital tests.. for only $9! I figured it was meant to be.. and took them to the check out. I thought about taking the test at Walmart so I could run home and talk to your daddy before having to go to work. I didn't really have to pee though, so I just went straight to work.
I was trying so hard not to get my hopes up.. but I wanted it to be true so bad. I can't remember exactly how long I waited before I took the test into the bathroom. My hands were shaking so bad when I was unwrapping the test. I did my thing and set it on the sink. I tried not to look at it as I washed my hands and fixed my hair. When I glanced down and saw the clear, digital words PREGNANT I burst out in a huge grin that probably stayed there the entrie time I was at work. I called and made a doctor appointment and then called your daddy right away. We both knew better than to get our hopes up.. but it was finally happening!
I couldn't keep this to myself so I had to tell your Auntie Sami. She was so excited too :) I didn't want to tell anyone else until I'd gotten confirmation from the doctors. I knew I wouldn't want to tell many other people right away anyways, but I was having dinner with my friends, Jessie and Erin later that night. They've been here for me through this from the very beginning and I knew I just had to tell them! (both of them are pregnant.. just a couple weeks ahead of me!)
Long story short.. your daddy and I waited in the waiting room at the clinic for about 30 minutes before we were seen. When we were brought into the doctors office the nurse took my blood pressure and sent me to pee in a cup. 10 minutes later the doctor came in, shook our hands and said congratulations :) I think we were both a little speechless at first. Could all our dreams finally be coming true?!
Well yes, little one.. they are. Because I am growing you inside of me, and you are mine.
I will love you forever,
Your mama :)
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Dearest Little One,
Just yesterday your daddy and I found out that you were growing inside of me. We couldn't have been more excited! You are all that we have talked about, wished for, and dreamt about for so long now.
I need to remember to send Dr. Susa a thank you letter for helping us create the miracle that is you!
As of right now, you have been making yourself a home in my tummy for about 2 weeks. I know it's so early, but we love you so much already. I have only seen your daddy cry a handful of times in the many years we've been together, but I know he was fighting back those tears yesterday in the doctor's office.
For the most part it is still pretty surreal to me. I can't wait until I get to see your sweet little self during our first ultrasound! Unfortunately, that isn't for about another 5 weeks.. but you can believe that I will be counting down the days!
You have been making me quite tired these last 2 weeks, little lamb. And oh boy, the dreams that I've been having! I'm going to try to remember jot them down when I wake up in the middle of the night. I figure we can look back and both laugh about the craziness of them someday ;)
Well I have to get back to work now, but I'll be thinking about you my sweet angel.
Love Always,
Mama
I need to remember to send Dr. Susa a thank you letter for helping us create the miracle that is you!
As of right now, you have been making yourself a home in my tummy for about 2 weeks. I know it's so early, but we love you so much already. I have only seen your daddy cry a handful of times in the many years we've been together, but I know he was fighting back those tears yesterday in the doctor's office.
For the most part it is still pretty surreal to me. I can't wait until I get to see your sweet little self during our first ultrasound! Unfortunately, that isn't for about another 5 weeks.. but you can believe that I will be counting down the days!
You have been making me quite tired these last 2 weeks, little lamb. And oh boy, the dreams that I've been having! I'm going to try to remember jot them down when I wake up in the middle of the night. I figure we can look back and both laugh about the craziness of them someday ;)
Well I have to get back to work now, but I'll be thinking about you my sweet angel.
Love Always,
Mama
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